inspiration

Good evening, dear readers!  I am very body tired as I write this but I have some things that I want to write to you about.  In the last two days, we had three 30-minute dance performances and I danced my sword solo at each performance.  After the second performance today, I had several different women approach me and tell me what an inspiration I was to them as I was dancing.  One woman told me that even though there may have been other dancers who were skinnier than me that she thought I had much better control over my body than they did and that my movements were sexier than theirs.  I had an older woman also approach me and she told me that I needed to promise her that I would never stop dancing because I made her feel so much joy as she watched me and I need to share that with others.  Both of those women told me things that I needed to hear.

I was very tired after the first performance today and I retreated to the "safe" place in my head.  I know that it's not always a good idea to go into your head alone or to believe all of the thoughts that float around in there but that's the place I went to.  When the second performance of today started I was really hoping that I would have the energy to make it through all of the numbers.  As we began to dance, the crowd went NUTS!  Because I was having so much fun performing for and to the audience I forgot how tired I was and I just danced.  It was exhilarating.  Not that I remember much of it, but I know I did some new things during my sword solo and I hope that I can remember enough to use them in the next performance.

I know that I'm not 100% where I want to be with my dancing but I do acknowledge that I am learning more and am improving with each performance opportunity.  I hope that some of the people we passed out "first class free" cards come to the studio and that more people can learn about this dance form that celebrates women (and men) of all shapes and sizes.  Yes, there are times that I complain about my body shape/size but I am coming to terms with the fact that I will never be a size 2 and I don't think I'd want to be even if it were possible.

Well, my dear readers, there is more that I'd like to write about but I am unfortunately falling asleep at my keyboard.  Thankfully I have tomorrow off of work and I am looking forward to sleeping in late.  Before I head off to dreamland, I have a challenge for you -- think about what inspires you this week and try and do something that may inspire others!  =)