I have been sick more often in the last six months or so than I have been in the last six years I think... I am sick yet again and even took most of Friday off of work in order to rest and take medications. I had started feeling like I was coming down with something on Tuesday and felt progressively worse as the week went on. I had no voice on Thursday so opted to skip singing choir rehearsal but I did go to handbells. On Friday morning, I called my boss's boss (since my boss is on vacation), to tell her that I had put in 51 hours of work and needed to go home sick. She paused and then asked me if she had heard correctly when I said I worked 51 hours (and to remind you, I only get paid for 40 hours) and I told her yes. She didn't seem happy about the number of hours I had clocked and told me to go ahead and go home, hoping that I felt better. After about three days of living on my couch (other than to go to church for Easter Sunday and a quick trip to the grocery store), I am feeling some better even though I'm not feeling 100% human yet.
It's starting to hit me (like a ton of bricks) that there is a direct correlation to my health and my stress levels. Some things have been going on at work lately that have caused me to work more hours than usual (which have already been too many hours in each work week) and I am once again sick. I honestly probably should have taken another day off of work last week and I guilted myself into being there. I need to find a way to start taking better care of myself and stop letting work dictate my well-being. I'm not sure how I'm going to do that or what I'm going to cut out but I know I need to do something.
Unfortunately the kids are out of school again this week so that means we are open from very early in the morning until late at night and someone has to be there. On Mondays, the person who's "me" when I'm not there is off so I will need to be there from open to close. I am hoping that I get quite a bit accomplished at work tomorrow so I can potentially take some time off during the week (or at least take a lunch break out of the building) but we'll see what's in store for me going back in after Friday off. I know that there is a meeting with some pretty important people that I have to attend at on Thursday but I have all of my information together already for that meeting so that's one less thing I have to prepare for.
I wore a new pair of dragon earrings to work this past week and on the day I wore them, I said I didn't want to blame it on them but it was a day that I didn't think I should be allowed around people. I was hoping that the dragons would help ward off evil/demons and draw the weirdos to my aid (thanks for helping to put that into words, Mom!). Along any quest, there are always those prerequisite weirdos who assist along the way; and, if nothing else, they help in supplying the comic relief to the person on their quest. I think I need more weirdos to assist in my quest...
Well, my dear readers, I know this isn't an overly long post this week, but I think this Gypsy needs to take some more medication, get myself ready for tomorrow, and get to bed early tonight since I know that my alarm is going to go off very early in the AM. I hope we all find the weirdos that we need to help get us through the week! Thanks for joining me along my quest! If anyone reading has some thoughts on how to help me create some balance (and stop being sick), please feel free to comment! =)
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Why not be me?
I had someone approach me at church today and tell me that she wants to go clothes shopping with me. I saw that as a real compliment since I have my own signature style. Today I was wearing black and white vertical striped pants, a black tunic top, a long textured fuchsia vest and sandals with black beads and clear rhinestones. Now, I'm sure a lot of people would say, "wow, that's a lot of outfit" but I was happy with it and that's what important. The woman who I was talking to about my outfit gave me a boost of confidence since she herself has a very classic style but she said that she wished she could dress more like me. Lately I had been questioning some of my style and I was glad to have it validated.
Since I worked a six-day work week, I decided to indulge and took myself on a date last night. I took myself to the movies which is one of my vices. I think one of the reasons I like the movies so much is I can say I've been in a social situation but I don't have to worry about the anxiety I feel in more conventional social situations. I got to the theatre early since the movie I went to see had just come out this past week and there was hardly anyone in the theatre until right before the movie started. A group of younger people sat behind me and they were making rude comments that I was doing my best to ignore. I could hear them talking about the "lonely lesbian whale" sitting in front of them. There were many assumptions in that one statement and I was impressed that I was able to tune them out. I find it frustrating that teens think it's okay to make comments like that about people...
While I didn't want to take what they said to heart, I kind of did. I don't understand why people make assumptions based on how I look. I know that I could stand to lose some weight but just because I have short/shaved hair, that doesn't make me a lesbian. I know that teens can be cruel; I remember what middle school and high school was like. I do have to make my peace with teenagers as I am currently responsible for the teen side of the building at work. The person who was in charge of overseeing the teens was the also the sports coordinator and she recently had her position split to just being the sports coordinator - so someone has to take on the teens; and per my boss, that gets to be me.
When I was at work yesterday, I talked with two out of the three teen staff to see if we could change some of the things happening in the teen program. One of the things that definitely needs to change is, we need to make that side of the building a place the teens want to come and hang out. I don't know if it's just our teens or teens everywhere but they are obsessed with role playing board games that take place in a different realm/world. I gave the staff a challenge to pass along to the teens - why not rename the teen side of the building as their own realm and make the doors into some sort of a portal - along with the challenge, they're not allowed to name it after someplace that already exists in a game/book/movie/etc; it has to be original. I'm hoping that the teens/staff embrace this challenge because I think it could be a lot of fun to see what they come up with. I think it's important to encourage that creativity and for them to have a place that they feels belongs to them.
I'm hoping that if I can help them discover a place that belongs to them, I can also discover a place that belongs to me. I also hope to one day find a place that can accept me for me and where I don't feel as if I have to squelch my personality/style in order to please others. What I need to do is grab my muchness with both hands and run with it so I can let my freak flag fly again. I think, once again, I have felt the need to take the flag down and pack it away so others can be happy; by doing so, I'm not happy.
Well, my dear readers, as I contemplate some of these things, I am going to bring this to a close for this evening. The kiddos here are on Spring Break for the next two weeks so that means I am facing 12 hour work days starting at just after 6 am so I should probably decide what I'm going to wear tomorrow, get some food together for the day and head to bed. I hope you have a good week and I'll catch you on the flip side - thank you for joining me! =)
Since I worked a six-day work week, I decided to indulge and took myself on a date last night. I took myself to the movies which is one of my vices. I think one of the reasons I like the movies so much is I can say I've been in a social situation but I don't have to worry about the anxiety I feel in more conventional social situations. I got to the theatre early since the movie I went to see had just come out this past week and there was hardly anyone in the theatre until right before the movie started. A group of younger people sat behind me and they were making rude comments that I was doing my best to ignore. I could hear them talking about the "lonely lesbian whale" sitting in front of them. There were many assumptions in that one statement and I was impressed that I was able to tune them out. I find it frustrating that teens think it's okay to make comments like that about people...
While I didn't want to take what they said to heart, I kind of did. I don't understand why people make assumptions based on how I look. I know that I could stand to lose some weight but just because I have short/shaved hair, that doesn't make me a lesbian. I know that teens can be cruel; I remember what middle school and high school was like. I do have to make my peace with teenagers as I am currently responsible for the teen side of the building at work. The person who was in charge of overseeing the teens was the also the sports coordinator and she recently had her position split to just being the sports coordinator - so someone has to take on the teens; and per my boss, that gets to be me.
When I was at work yesterday, I talked with two out of the three teen staff to see if we could change some of the things happening in the teen program. One of the things that definitely needs to change is, we need to make that side of the building a place the teens want to come and hang out. I don't know if it's just our teens or teens everywhere but they are obsessed with role playing board games that take place in a different realm/world. I gave the staff a challenge to pass along to the teens - why not rename the teen side of the building as their own realm and make the doors into some sort of a portal - along with the challenge, they're not allowed to name it after someplace that already exists in a game/book/movie/etc; it has to be original. I'm hoping that the teens/staff embrace this challenge because I think it could be a lot of fun to see what they come up with. I think it's important to encourage that creativity and for them to have a place that they feels belongs to them.
I'm hoping that if I can help them discover a place that belongs to them, I can also discover a place that belongs to me. I also hope to one day find a place that can accept me for me and where I don't feel as if I have to squelch my personality/style in order to please others. What I need to do is grab my muchness with both hands and run with it so I can let my freak flag fly again. I think, once again, I have felt the need to take the flag down and pack it away so others can be happy; by doing so, I'm not happy.
Well, my dear readers, as I contemplate some of these things, I am going to bring this to a close for this evening. The kiddos here are on Spring Break for the next two weeks so that means I am facing 12 hour work days starting at just after 6 am so I should probably decide what I'm going to wear tomorrow, get some food together for the day and head to bed. I hope you have a good week and I'll catch you on the flip side - thank you for joining me! =)
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