looking for "me time"

Well, it was back to work this past week and I was busy, busy.  Not only did I have to accomplish my normal weekly tasks, I also had to play catch-up and complete the tasks from when I was out of the office on training.  I don't necessarily feel as if I accomplished everything but I definitely put a good dent in all of the things I needed to get done.  I suppose it just gives me a jump start on my to-do list for this upcoming week at work.  I have a starting point at least....

Along with these tasks I didn't accomplish, I also need to get ahead on tasks because in just a couple of short weeks, I'll be on vacation.  While I have quite a bit to get done at work before that point, I am just keeping my eyes on the tasks ahead.  My plan for tomorrow is to write a list of all what all needs to get done before my vacation, prioritize it, and just start checking things off of that list.  I know I've told myself before but I'm going to tell myself again that, I can only get done what I can get done and I'm not going to stress about the things that I can't.  We'll see if I'll be able to live up to that or not.

One of the things that I've decided that I also need to do is I need to start getting a better handle on getting my 10,000 steps in each day and getting back to working out.  When I was on my training, most of my days were spent sitting in a classroom and I was unable to reach my 10,000 step a day goal.  Since I've been back to work in my building, I've been so busy trying to play catch-up that I've had difficulty meeting that goal as well.  I'm disappointed in myself since I had been doing so well and I feel as if now I'm back at square one.  I know that it's up to me to do something about it and I guess I'm going to just have to give myself a swift kick in the butt again.

In my head I know that I just need to commit to a 100% lifestyle change and stop slipping into old, bad habits.  I have debated looking into one of those food delivery systems since I don't always do the best job of shopping/cooking for myself.  The only downside to those systems is I have food allergies/sensitivities and I'm worried about not having many options.  I guess I'm going to just have to look into it if it's something that I really want to commit to...

I don't like that I've been beating myself up so much about the issue of food and weight.  I know that I have written about these struggles one a semi-regular basis but I think I'm just adding to the problem.  I know that stress can lead to laziness and overeating so I know I need to work on cutting some of the stress/pressure I put on myself out of my life.  I get enough stress from other aspects of my life and I don't need to keep adding more in because I'm beating myself up.  On the other hand, I also need to find ways to cut the stress out of my life or minimize it where/when I can.

Maybe this is one of the reasons I'm looking forward to my vacation so much.  There are no expectations of me when I'm on vacation (other than taking one of my nephews to the zoo as per our tradition) and I can focus on doing things that I want to do.  I'm not quite sure what those things are that I want to do (other than hope/pray that the weather warms up and I'll be able to get into Mom and Dad's swimming pool) but having the option is exciting.  I think I need to bring some of that into my non-vacation life as well - the whole focusing on doing things that I want to do vs. always just doing the things that I feel I have to/need to do.

I think one of the ways I'm going to do that is to decide on at least one thing I want to do next weekend and commit to doing it.  Because of the hours I work and the other commitments I have after work (dance and choir) during the week isn't always a possibility but I have the weekend.  I don't have any dance gigs next weekend so I think I should have the time to do something for me.  I'll have to let you know what I decide to come up with for my "me time."

On that note, my dear readers, I am going to bring this to a close for tonight.  My plan is to get some sleep tonight, actually get up when the alarm goes off (vs. hitting the snooze bar) and doing something to workout.  I'm going to try and set some small, obtainable goals and go from there.  I'm also going to work on coming up with my plan for next weekend.  I hope that you have a great weekend and find something for your own "me time."  =)