Clothes

This past week I found myself looking at some clothes on-line. That was my first mistake... I have never been one who enjoys buying clothes. I have always found it difficult to find articles of clothing that I like, fit my personality and plain just fit my body type. I know that I shouldn't focus on what size things are but rather choosing the size that fit - - however, I have an issue with buying one size at one store and then finding something I like somewhere else and based on their size chart, I would have to go up 3 or 4 sizes (according to the measurements that were given). Because I found that to be annoying/depressing, I made the comment to a friend of mine that I was considering from now on only buying/wearing caftans and muumuus. Needless to say, she yelled at me and told me that I wasn't allowed to think about that or do it.

It doesn't help that I have once again hit a plateau when it comes to my weight loss goals and I think I need to go back to eating more salads than other stuff. Maybe I just need to shake things up when it comes to how I approach my dance workouts... Granted we do have some upcoming shows where we are going to be pushing our endurance (we have more than an hour of choreography that we'll be starting to work on again - - we have been working on one piece in particular due to a huge show next weekend) so we'll see if that helps or not too.

I guess one of the things that I need to work on is not just focusing on the end goal but to also celebrate the small accomplishments along the way. I know that I have been able to do that for short intervals in the past but it's something that I am going to strive towards once again. At the end of most of our belly dance classes, our instructor has us give ourselves pats on the back to acknowledge what we've accomplished during that class - I will usually participate in said exercise but I don't always believe it. Something else that I need to get over.

I need to find some way to get out of this "funk" that I've been in the last couple of weeks. It doesn't help that I have still have a plugged head and have been coughing on and off, plus I haven't been sleeping well at night, and I have been overextending myself at work. I guess I just have to find a way, once again, to bring some balance into my life. One of the things I am thinking of doing to shake things up a bit is I've found a new piece of music that I would like to play around with for a new dance solo. I'm not sure when I'm going to have it polished or ready to perform but I think it might help. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I heard something in a show that hit kind of close to home - - "a dream is something that fills up the empty places inside of you. When you lay awake at night, what do you feel is missing?" I guess those will be some things that I will need to truly ponder in the upcoming week (and it is something that I want to make the time to do).

Maybe one of the things that will help is to take a break from looking at clothes on-line, focus on some other things and then only look into buying clothes that I can try on first (rather than just looking at measurements). I don't know about any of you out there, but I'm having a little bit of trouble adjusting to daylight savings time this weekend so I think I'm going to sign off for tonight and try and get some sleep in order to get ready for my busy week ahead...