Putting things in perspective

I was faced with a draining week that left me exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally.  After such a crazy week, I decided to treat myself to a movie after work on Friday.  I went to opening night of the movie but I guess too many people hadn't heard about it since the theatre didn't have too many of the seats filled.  Looking back, my movie choice might not have been the best after such a draining week but I thought the movie was fabulous (I went and saw Wish I Was Here and if you don't know the premise, the movie is about a man who's questioning his life when he finds out his father is dying).  Parts of the movie were difficult to digest but I think they gave me some things to think about.

One of the thoughts presented in the movie was the main character and his brother imagined themselves as super heroes growing up but now maybe they weren't the heroes but ones that needed saving.  That put some things into an interesting perspective for me -- I have often felt the need to "save" others and while I don't want to necessarily be a damsel in distress, it would be nice to be saved every so often.  It might be less exhausting that way at least...

I'm not sure if it's because I had such a rough week or what but I have been feeling like in different aspects of my life I'm taking one step forward, four back, three in a circle, down a winding path, in the dark and the batteries in my flashlight are dead.  I have heard the saying that sometimes you must be lost in order to find yourself and maybe that's the path that I'm on since I definitely feel lost.  I'm sure that's some of the stress talking but it is how I've been feeling.  I feel as if I've been questioning so many different things that I don't have the answers for anything and that's not a feeling I like.

Because I have perfectionist tendencies, I still haven't made it a full work week leaving when I'm "supposed" to.  I think I need to do a better job in adopting Yoda's philosophy of "do or do not there is no try" when it comes to leaving at the end of my day.  In my head I know that they can survive without me (they've done it when I've been away on training or on vacation) but I have a tendency to say "oh, I'll just do one more thing and then I'll leave..." and that turns into another thing and another and another...  I know that I need to get to the point where I just leave and know that the work will be there for me to accomplish the next day.  Since I often try to cram as much work as I can into each day, there are times I have to redo the work the next day because I completed it while tired; not a good combination.

Well, I know this is a shorter post tonight but I should probably bring this to a close so I can get some sleep tonight.  This upcoming week is the last week of summer programming for my building and while it's been fun, I am SO ready for it to be over...  I am going to leave this week on time (see how I didn't write try to leave on time?!) and we'll see how all of that goes.  I hope each and everyone of you have a wonderful week ahead and I hope to see you back here next week!  =)