Sleepy...

I don't know if it's one thing or a combination of things (a very long week at work, the workout schedule I've created for myself, the time change, not enough sleep, etc) but I have had a difficult time staying awake the last couple of days.  Of course, I haven't been able to stay asleep at night and have found myself tossing and turning some but I have been falling asleep on the couch.  Maybe I should either move my couch into the bedroom or just sleep on the couch at night and see if that helps...

I know that one of the things that I can do for myself to help with being tired all of the time is changing my eating habits.  There are days that I work out a lot that I know that I'm probably not eating enough to go along with the calories that I'm burning.  I have a App on my phone that I can use to track my eating/exercise habits and there are days when I've keyed in my information and it has told me that I'm not eating enough.  Those are the days where I am just not able to eat anymore because I'm just not hungry.  I guess I will just have to look at what food I'm eating on those days.  This whole thing is definitely a process...

I don't know why I was hoping this to be a faster process but I was really hoping to see some sort of results from the diet/exercising by now.  I have had people point out and remind me that it took time to put the weight on so it'll take time to take it off -- at least if I want to do it the healthy way.  I know that there would be "fast" and unhealthy ways to take weight off but in doing so I could potentially gain all of that weight back and then some which is something that I really don't want to have happen.  I want all of this work to mean something and that means a new way to look at food and what food I consume.  See, I know all of these things in my head but I just want to see different results when I look in the mirror.

Maybe one of the reasons I'm having such a difficult time with all of this is because I'm stressing myself out.  I tend to hold things close to my heart when I should just let them go rather than stressing out on things that I can't change.  I have always had a difficult time letting go of things and I do often take things personally.  For most of my life I have been able to tell others not to take things to heart or to dwell on them - especially the things that they can't change.  I am able to give that advice to others but not take my own advice when it comes to matters such as this.  One of the things that I hope to work on for myself (yes, yet another thing for me to work on) is to let things go that I cannot control/change and not take things so personally.  I know this will not be an easy or a quick process but I think it's one that I definitely need to make for my own well being and my sanity.  I know that I am often quick to take care of others and not myself but it's something that I need to do -- I know that I've said it before but this time I'm going to make an effort to actually do it -- is I need to make myself a priority.


I don't know if it's been because I've been tired or what but I am so sick/tired of all of the political ads that have been on TV and on the radio that I cannot wait until Wednesday when this Election is over and done with.  I myself have registered to vote but I really don't like the smear tactics going on by all of the candidates and back/forth on all of the different propositions being voted on this week.

In an effort to not have issues such as this continue to bug me tonight, I think that I'm going to bring this to a close and try and relax before heading to bed.  Have a great week, dear readers!  =)