100 posts

Where does the times go? According to my blog home page, I have written 100 posts. Really? One hundred posts? I guess if nothing else, seeing on my screen that I have written 100 posts shows me there has been a definite passage of time. I can also go back and read that I have made progress (even though I have those days that I feel as if I haven't made any progress whatsoever....).

In a lot of avenues, the number 100 is significant. In elementary schools, the 100th day of school is met with celebrations. In money, when you reach 100, you transfer coins to paper money. People watch their odometers switch over to 100. So, in my opinion, the reaching 100 posts of Gypsy's Quest is a milestone. =)

Sure, I know that I have done some ranting and raving along the way but I also hope that I have said something to reach someone out there in cyberspace (I don't always know without comments). Granted, I write for me but I do know that there are people out there who power up their computers on Monday to see what I've had to say (Good morning, Grandma!). That alone is a good feeling.

There are some days where it is difficult to believe that I have been writing for just about two years now. It is interesting for me to go back and reread some of the things that I have written over these last 100 posts. As I said, I can see that I have made progress (which, for me, is extremely important on my "bad" days). On those bad days, I can reread what I have written and I try really hard to look at things objectively, almost as if I'm reading about a character in a book.

I am attempting to look at things now as the next chapters of me. My life is still the same novel but the character of me is evolving. Not necessarily evolving in the way that I expected things to go but evolving nonetheless. I guess that's one way to look at an adventure or a quest - it doesn't always evolve in the way that you plan but then again, it wouldn't be an adventure/quest if you had all of the answers... While there are times where I'm tempted to flip to the last few chapters and see where I end up, but then again, if I did that, I wouldn't appreciate the good things as much without having to deal with the bumps along the way.

After rereading my post from last week, something that I am going to strive to work on is not being so hard on myself on a regular basis. I know that this isn't something that is going to change over night, but it is something that I am going to add to my list of goals. I am going to begin to allow myself to have off days/moments and accept that I am going to mess up along the way. But like my Mom has told me, if you make a mess of things, clean up the mess, assess the damage and move on. That's really all I can do. Yes, there are parts of my life that have been awfully messy, but I am working on cleaning those areas up and assessing the damage. We'll see where I end up in the next 100 posts. Thank you so much for reading! =)