Strange

Today a strange feeling came over me. It started off as an almost panicked feeling and then it just surprised me. I was panicked/surprised that my wedding ring was "missing" from my finger. I haven't worn my ring in almost a year so why did I miss it today? I have NO clue....

Granted, in under a week, is the day that would have been my 6 year anniversary. That is a strange feeling. Knowing that I am swiftly approaching what marks the anniversary of the day my wasband swore to love, honor and cherish me for as long as we both shall live (ironically, two days after what would have been my 5 year anniversary last year, I received the divorce papers telling me essentially that my wasband didn't love, honor or cherish me anymore). I don't know if that's what made me miss my wedding ring today or what happened....

I feel like I am making progress along my journey of personal growth and then a day like today happens. While I was able to recover from my feeling of panic rather quickly, having the feeling still distracted me some throughout my day. I was just confused as to why I missed my ring today. I don't know what made today any different than this past year. After I got ready for work and I was getting ready to head out the door, I glanced at my left hand and then noticed that my ring was "missing." It was strange for the first few weeks after I took it off initially last year, but for the most part since then, I haven't really realized it was gone.

There are times where parts of me feel broken beyond repair. As I said, I feel like I am making progress but then there are times where I wonder if I will ever feel completely whole again. I am working on my self-confidence issues by taking my belly dancing class but I know that there are some issues that are just going to take time to work through. I took me a while to get to this point in my life and it's not going to be "fixed" overnight. I just have to work on being patient - something that I occasionally have problems with.... =)

Well, while I continue on my journey of self-reflection and self-improvement, I will continue to post my thoughts. I hope my readers continue to enjoy. =)

Until then, I need to sign off so I can belly dance on my own (that's the great thing about the fitness industry, you can buy every type of workout video imaginable). =)