I had a strange comment made towards me today and I'm still kind of wondering about it... I had a migraine yesterday and it hung on today as well; we had a total of three dance performances (we were supposed to have four - for one performance, we weren't on the schedule and they couldn't find the paperwork that was summit in order for us to perform so we didn't) over the last two days and while I always enjoy performing, the performances were not fun with the migraine. Actually, I take that back - I made them as fun/joyful as I could under the circumstances. Yesterday, people were asking what was wrong since the pain was apparent on my face; when people asked how I was doing today (and I responded that while for the most part the migraine was gone, I still had tension/pain at the base of my skull), someone with the group said to me, "you just love to complain, don't you?" I was kind of taken aback by the comment because I didn't feel as if I was complaining, I felt as if I was answering the questions asked of me. To each their own, I guess...
I felt as if I gave my all during the performances under the circumstances of my head hurting. We had two performances at the local Fair. While we were performing, I was completely surprised to see some people from work in the audience; none of them had seen me dance before and interestingly they didn't make plans to meet up, they just all happened to be there. One of them I actually used to work in a classroom with a number of years ago and I knew her before she had her son, who was with her in the audience. She and her son approached me afterwards and asked if they could take photos with me (I said, of course!) and I even let her balance my sword on her head (which her son thought was pretty cool).
Things at work are still crazy and I'm not sure that the work stresses didn't contribute some to my migraine. We not only still have work to do after our inspection but we also have a big all-day Saturday event coming up in a couple of weeks, a week long day-camp coming up next month and staffing issues. Not only are we currently understaffed, but I also have to have staff assist in covering soccer fields because we have to keep eyes on our coaches and my Sports Coordinator is wanting me to work magic that I don't feel as if I currently can manage/maintain. I feel as if I'm doing my best to accommodate all that she's asking of me but in doing so, I have to work after hours to get my work accomplished because I'm having to step into programming myself to cover so my staff can cover soccer fields. What's overly frustrating about it is she just keeps saying that no one cares about the sports program - it makes me want to bang my head on the wall sometimes...
While part of me is excited to get to have tomorrow off of work, the other part of me dreads three day weekends only in the sense that you have four days to accomplish five days worth of work. I know that I've done it before but that doesn't make it any easier; especially when I have to be in programming Tuesday afternoon and the kids get out of school early every day this week for parent/teacher conferences so we have to pick up early. In my time off tomorrow, I'm hoping to at least take a few minutes to come up with a game plan for the week in order to get what I need to accomplished.
From re-reading what I've written, I've realized that once again I need to learn how to cut myself a break. I've never really learned how to do this and I'm not sure how/if I'm going to be able to do it this time but I know that I need to do something. I was talking with my Mom today and realized that I have no idea the last time I took myself to the aquarium (something I really enjoy doing) because I always find reasons not to go. I also am so busy working towards the next thing that I don't allow myself to enjoy even small victories. With the not so small victory of our inspection completion the other week, I rewarded my staff by buying them lunch but I didn't do anything for myself. Why? I'm not sure but I need to figure out how to make some sort of a change...
Well my dear readers, even though I have the day off, I just realized that it's after midnight so I should probably bring this to a close and attempt to get some sleep tonight. I took a little nap earlier after today's performances and to help take the rest of my migraine away and I'm hoping that by taking the nap I didn't make it so I won't sleep tonight. I hope if you have tomorrow off (and even if you don't), you take the opportunity to do something for you! Thanks for joining me! =)
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