What am I learning?

So last night I downloaded/watched a movie that I had wanted to see in theaters but after seeing it, I'm definitely glad that I missed it.  Don't get me wrong; I enjoyed the movie and it resonated with me on multiple levels but I don't know if I would've been able to handle it in the theaters.  The movie that I watched is called "Demolition" and it's about a man who is trying to put his life back together after tragedy.  In the movie, this man's father-in-law basically tells him, if you want to figure something out, take it apart, see how it works and then put it back together.  After this tragedy, he tries to take apart his marriage/life to see if he can put it back together.

What did I learn from watching this movie?  I learned that if you make a mess out of your life (whether it's an emotional mess, physical mess, whatever), you have to clean it up and move on the best that you can.  Some messes take longer than others to create and some definitely take longer than others to clean up and there is nothing wrong with that as long as you keep trying.  Parts of the movie were easier for me to watch than others but I just hit pause, took a break for a minute, and came back to it to watch the entire thing.

I thought it was a good way to spend my evening after having an out of town performance yesterday with the dance troupe.  The performance was a little bit of a comedy of errors but we made it through.  I had planned to dance my sword piece but since I've still been sick, my balance has been a little off and didn't think using the sword would be a safe choice.  I performed one of the troupe dances as a solo and I felt it went pretty well.  We were dancing the first piece and our instructor's phone (which we were using for music) overheated; luckily I had the music on my phone so we were able to continue - the only downside with that is I didn't have the music as a single playlist because I wasn't planning on needing to supply the music.  I've said before and I'll say it again - always, always, ALWAYS have at least one backup CD with music as a "just in case."

After the performance, the troupe stayed at the restaurant to eat and I graciously bowed out.  I know that might make me come off as snooty or standoffish but I needed to recharge.  I've been sick, still working 60+ hours in the week and I haven't been sleeping overly well - I needed to get away.  People who aren't introverts don't tend to understand that concept but I need my alone time and quiet in order to get myself ready to face the week ahead.  There are times I hate feeling as if I must escape a situation but that's how I felt after the performance yesterday.  I don't know what made yesterday necessarily different but that's how I felt.

Today I awoke to the news that my sister and her hubby were headed to the hospital for them to bring their new little boy into the world.  After what was a very long day I'm sure, their new bundle of joy came into the world at 9:50 pm their time (three hour time difference from me) and he's a little thing (weighing in at just over 6 lbs.).  It's times like this that definitely makes me realize how frustrating it is to live so far away.  Over the next few days, three out of my four nephews have birthdays (one today, one tomorrow and one on Wednesday) - as my Mom said, they are our little June bugs.  =)  If nothing else, no matter how messy my life might seem, I can focus on my June bug nephews and my Christmas nephew (he was born two days before Christmas) and just be the best auntie I can be; even if it is from a long distance away.

Life is measured in moments - good, bad or indifferent they are moments in an overall life.  If there is a situation currently that seems overly messy or destroyed, learn what you can from that mess and move on.  That's what I am going to try and do myself along this quest of mine.  Thank you for joining me, my dear readers!  =)