As week two of summer programming at work wound to a close, I found myself not feeling well. I thought I was having an allergic reaction to plants growing outside the building that are starting to bloom but then I was still congested at home and on Friday I began coughing. So I've been on over the counter medication for a couple days, slept off and on all day yesterday, and am starting to feel a little better today. I know that it's a sign that I'm pushing myself too hard but I don't see that I necessarily have a choice.
I push myself to the breaking point and then find myself getting sick. I am definitely not one who likes to admit that I need to slow down but being sick tells me that I do (and I'm not happy about it). It would probably be helpful if I got more sleep at night but I have been doing more tossing and turning at night than I've been sleeping - and I know that needs to change. One of the things I'm toying with is I have come across the concept of "bullet journaling" and I'm wondering if that might help me leave my day behind and be able to get a list of the day ahead going so I can sleep. We'll see if doing something like this will help me or not; I figure at this point, it really can't hurt to give it a try...
We had someone join our work team for the summer and she noticed something about me from being there for less than an hour - she asked me, "I see you doing lots for others, when do you do things for yourself?" It's pretty humbling to have someone who doesn't know you realize something so personal about you in such a short time. She said that she's going to bring me an article about managers and self-care but she hasn't brought it to me yet. I'm hoping that if/when she brings it to me that it will give me some insight that I haven't been able to figure out for myself yet (since I've been struggling with this ever since I became a manager...).
I encourage my staff on a regular basis to not be like me and to push themselves beyond their limits for work. I tell them not to push themselves like that and yet I do so pretty much everyday at work. I am the only one who works earlier/later than open to close, I don't take a lunch away from my desk, and then when I'm not participating in extra curricular activities outside of work (dance two - three times a week and choir practice once a week), I'm either bringing work home with me or I'm worried about work while I'm at home. I'm a Libra and should strive to not only bring balance to other peoples lives but to bring it to my own life as well - I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet...
One of my goals going forward is to try and find something that is just for me and that relaxes me. I have never really been a fan of massages but at this stage of my life (and my stress levels) I may be willing to give it at least another chance. I used to enjoy getting my nails done and I might look into doing that again (and maybe attempting a pedicure but be sure to tell them that I need to be able to keep the calluses on my feet for dance) or getting my hair colored again since I had fun with that. I know that I need to come up with something but I probably need to get healthy first before doing anything.
I had the opportunity to see photos/videos of the family get together in my parent's backyard today and the fun from the pool that could only be described as circus training. There were little boys being flipped through the air and laughing/splashing in the pool and even though I couldn't be there, it was fun to see the videos. After they left, I got to video chat with my parents on FaceTime and it was good to see them (even if I couldn't do so in person). It was kind of fun to see my Dad's reaction to his Father's Day gift - he loves getting iTunes gift cards because he can use them for whatever he wants so that's what I sent him. I have a great relationship with both of my parents and even though neither of us will admit it, I am definitely a Daddy's girl.
Well my dear readers, before things get too mushy, I'm going to bring this to a close for tonight so I can take more medication and head to bed - hopefully getting some good sleep tonight before heading into my 60+ hour work week. This upcoming week at work is a Super Hero theme so hopefully it will all go off without a hitch. Here's wishing you a super week and I thank you for joining me! =)
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