Me time

It's funny/sad at the same time how little thought I give to doing things for myself and how much time I think about doing things for other people.  This past week, I worked approximately 58 hours over six days and I probably would have worked a few more if I didn't have a dentist appointment one day and have to leave work early to make my appointment.  One of the things I didn't like that the dentist told me is he said that he can tell I'm overly stressed because there is evidence of either clenching my jaw or starting to grind my teeth at night; if I don't do something about it, I'm going to end up in a night guard and that thought does not appeal to me.

After all of that, I opted to do several things for me today and, for the most part, I feel very good about those things.  I started my day by getting up very early (not so fun) and I went whale watching. I haven't gone in forever (in about a year) and today was a great day to go!  We ended up seeing three different types of whales (a minke, several humpbacks and lots of orcas), some dolphins, sea lions, jellyfish and different kinds of birds.  When I checked in at the stand, I was given a free upgrade to the upper deck of the boat and it just helped with the amazing view - it was a beautiful day out and the water was relatively calm (even though one guy ended up getting sea sick).  I enjoyed the time out on the water and it definitely helped make me feel more relaxed.

Once we got back to shore, I went to find my favorite crepe restaurant only to find that it had moved locations!  After an initial moment of panic, I was able to find the new location and enjoyed two different crepes - I had a lemon sugar one (a favorite of my mine and my Mom) and I splurged and had a homemade caramel one too.  While I consumed too many calories, today was about doing things for me so I didn't overly care.  And it helped that they were both super yummy!

When I got home, I did something that totally terrified me - I submitted my resume to an online job application.  It's a job that I thing I would enjoy and be good at but the thought of hitting the submit button and actually applying for it, makes my anxiety rise.  One of the things that made it difficult is I don't really do a good job advertising myself and thankfully my Dad helped me rework my resume - I definitely still have more work to do on my resume but I didn't have a chance to stress over it too much today since the job posting ended today and I had to send it.  We'll see what comes from it and go from there.

I know I come by second guessing decisions honestly (I think it's in my DNA since I know both my parents do it too) but I think I'm waiting for the day or the decision that just feels "right" that I don't feel the need to "what if" it to death.  Since today is not that day, I should probably bring this to a close and attempt to get some sleep tonight.  I know this isn't an overly long post, but I spent a good chunk of my afternoon working on my resume and I just realized what time it is so I should head to bed.  I am hoping that my newfound sense of wanting to do some things for me will spill over into my work week.  Thank you for joining me, my dear readers!  =)