Monsters need love, too

My boss made a comment this week about her doing everything that she could to stay above water.  She didn't seem to appreciate my (surprisingly snappy) comeback; I said that I understood the feeling however I stopped trying to tread water awhile ago and am just hoping that someone will feed me an air hose.  What impressed me is I said what I felt in the moment and even though it seemed to annoy her, I felt good expressing it.  There are times I feel as if I suppress what I'm thinking/feeling in order to not rock the boat but in this instance I felt as if it was important to say what was on my mind and exactly how I've been feeling.

I came across a quote this week that has really stuck with me; one of the reasons it stuck with me I think is it described me in a scarily accurate way.  The quote is one by A.R. Lucas (who I'd never heard of before) and it reads, "She's stubborn.  She hates being touched and she doesn't like many people.  Her hair is nearly as black as the heart she wants the world to think she has.  In the eyes of some she's a monster, but monsters come in many forms, and some monsters aren't really monsters at all.  Sometimes monsters are just fairies that are scared to be loved.  And sometimes they're the ones that deserve love most."  We just have to remember, monsters need love too...

I have often related to Maleficent and I thought of her when I read the part in that quote about fairies that are scared to be loved.  She was a fairy who people labeled a monster and she just wanted/needed someone to love her.  I know that Maleficent is not someone that most would relate to or even understand but I am one of those people.  I loved the story line of the Maleficent with Angelina Jolie that even though Maleficent cursed Aurora out of anger, she did regret her curse and tried to remedy it eventually.  We all make hasty decisions at times (and some of those hasty decisions stem from anger or hurt feelings) but I think if you then try to remedy it, that's what's important.  I am a proponent of people getting second chances (and sometimes third and fourth chances) but I do get frustrated when people take advantage of those chances and seem to expect to receive more chances.

We have some upcoming inspections at work and some people are stressing out over them.  Now, my opinion about inspections are, inspectors are going to find what they're going to find and they will tend to find more if they feel as if you're trying to hide things from them.  That being said, not everyone at work shares my view on inspections and they are worry themselves sick about them.  We received some new inspection criteria on Friday and other than printing it out, I honestly didn't really look at it (I had a class to teach Friday afternoon/evening and the class "script" changed so I was focusing on that).  I felt as if I had a very solid plan for going over the criteria last year and I will start that process tomorrow; I took the criteria, highlighted it based on programming and then turned it into a spreadsheet.  Now, I know that process doesn't work for everyone but it worked for me.  I feel as if because I have a plan in place, and am going to start implementing it tomorrow, I'm in good shape.  I don't know if everyone at work would agree with me but that's my view.

My boss is one of those people who stresses out over inspections and she called me I don't know how many times about the inspection criteria on Friday.  I haven't let her down with an inspection yet (at least I don't really think that I have) and I just want to point that out to her and ask that she trust that I have a plan.  I guess all I can do is go into work tomorrow, start my process and go from there.  I know that trust has to be earned and I guess I have to earn that trust again with this new criteria.  That's all I can do, right?

Well, my dear readers, if I'm going to start implementing my inspection plan tomorrow at work, I should probably attempt to get a good night's sleep.  We are currently in the middle of a thunderstorm (and I don't do well with rain/thunderstorms) so I'm hoping that I'll be able to get some good sleep tonight.  It's supposed to rain off and on all week so I'm also hoping that I don't have to build an ark for myself to keep from being washed away...  With all of the rain, I'm not sure how much muchness I'll be able to bring to myself but I'll need to do something to keep my spirits up with the rain.  I hope that you have a wonderful week and thank you for joining me along my quest (monster and all).  =)