What was I thinking??

This weekend has been utterly exhausting and it's all my fault... Yesterday I had my normal two-hour belly dance class and I worked for a half hour before class and just over a half hour after class (so, yes, a total of three hours of belly dance). Then, after I got home, I decided to put myself through another one-hour intense workout. So, yes, I put myself through four hours of intense workout yesterday. When it was time for me to get out of bed this morning, I didn't think that I'd be able to move.

After I stretched, I was able to move and get my day going. Today was another busy one. I went to church, came home and did laundry, talked to my parents (had a fun little power outage while I was on the phone with them), I vacuumed the rugs, used the wet-jet on the floors, gave the dogs and bath and now I'm writing. It's been a long and busy weekend.

While it felt good at the time to work out as much as I did yesterday, I don't believe I will be putting myself through that kind of strenuous day again. I think my workout obsession yesterday came from what I wrote about last week. I would like to change the way I look on the outside but I don't think overdoing it like I did yesterday is the way to go about it... My Mom suggested today that I might not want to overdo the workouts (because that will add muscle, which in turn, will add weight) but tweak my food intake. Maybe some small changes will give my body the jump-start that I'm hoping for...

I think part of this desire for change comes from the time of year this is for me. Just about one year ago today, I said good-bye to the wasband (as I've written about before - - I'm not the best when dealing with good-byes) and maybe that has something to do with the fact that I'm not overly excited with the things I see in the mirror. I'm hoping if I can jump-start my weight loss again that might help. While I have still been toning, my weight loss itself has hit a plateau. We'll see if I can't change that.

Another way that I have helped change the outward "me" is I have ordered a new pair of glasses. I picked out red frames (I wanted to have some "fun" glasses this time) but I did have to special order the lenses for them. They are going to call me when I can pick them up (hopefully this week). On top of that, I am now thinking about what I may want to do with my hair (do I want to chop it off or let it grow longer and then chop it off if I hate it?) and what I would like to do with my wardrobe if/when I can ever afford it. So, needless to say, I am at a point (once again) where I feel as if I have WAY more questions/thoughts than answers.

I guess what I just have to do right now is celebrate the small things - - a new color of nail polish (right now my fingernails are turquoise and my toenails are hot pink), conquering a belly dance move that I have been working on, remembering to take time to put on a little make-up in the morning before work, a one pound weight loss, my glasses being ready for pick-up, etc. It's all a starting point, right?