What is "normal" anyway?

Well, my brother went home yesterday and my dogs have been looking for him since. It's kind of funny that they are looking for him since he didn't really interact with them when he was here. =) I'm finding out, after having him visit for just over a week, that my apartment is once again too quiet ... I had become mostly used to being alone and the quiet that brings and now it's quiet again. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed having him visit, it's just going to take some time getting used to the quiet again...

My brother and I were pretty busy when he was here, sure we had our couch potato moments but we also did some of the "tourist-y" things in the area. I think some of his favorite things from his visit were the belly dance performances, but I can't really blame him for that - - we are pretty fun to watch. ;)

When we danced this past Friday, we were once again dancing outside and it was cold and windy. I think that's going to be the "norm" for our outdoor performances and the nice sunny days will be the performance days that we don't expect. Oh, well. At least the cold helps make our shimmies more "genuine." ;)

On my way back from dropping my brother off at the airport yesterday, I went to the mall and bought myself some new belly dance jewelry. I got some new bangle bracelets (which are always good for dancing) and a chunky/sparkly bracelet (also good for dancing). I then went to another store and bought some colored rhinestones to work on a belly dance wrap that I started but ran out of rhinestones before I could finish it. With my Mom's permission, I used a belly dance silhouette that she drew and used rhinestones to put the silhouette onto my wrap. I'm pretty impressed with how it turned out (don't worry Mom, I'll send you photos) and am looking forward to wrapping up in it for our next performance (or maybe I'll wrap up in it on my way to/from rehearsal tomorrow night). =)

Then today, I did something that I don't tend to do. I took myself to get something to eat after church (and I actually ate at the restaurant rather than just taking it to go) and then I took myself to the movies. It was just as fun/liberating as the last time I took myself to the movies (I could sit where ever I wanted to and didn't have to share my popcorn with anyone) but one of the scenes in the movie did bring tears to my eyes... In the movie, the man proposed and asked if he could spend forever loving her... It just hit a little too close to home from how short my own offered "forever" ended up being....

There are times where I just wonder when is all of this going to end..... No, I don't want him back; especially after some of the stuff that he's pulled. I don't know, maybe I'm just looking for some semblance of normalcy - whatever that may be... Maybe just one more time I'm looking for just a glimpse of what the future may hold. I don't want to spoil the surprise of what the entire future holds; it would just be nice to know what the next step might be...

I had a phone job interview this past week and I wish I had a better feeling on how it may have gone. I feel as if I answered the questions in the "right" way but it all depends on what answers the panel was looking for. The job is one that I would like to be offered and it would provide me a growth opportunity professionally... I guess it's just one more time where it's a wait and see game.... They said that they would get back with me so I will keep you posted if/when I hear anything.

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