some random thoughts

Wow.... Where has the weekend gone? It feels like it has just zoomed by and I haven't accomplished much. Maybe part of it feels that way because I worked for 6 hours yesterday (we opened the child care center last night for about 6 hours so parent's could attend an event). With working yesterday, it feels like I only had a one day weekend and while it was a good day, it's coming to an end and I didn't get done what I had planned...

This morning at church, I sang a solo. It wasn't the song I was planning on singing, but when I went to practice the song I was planning on Thursday night, everything that could go wrong seemed to.... The sound system began to act up, I had trouble getting the words out of my mouth, nothing seemed to sound right..... So I switched to a different song (the one that first came to mind when I was asked to sing) and everything seemed to fall into place. I guess either the song was meant for me or someone in the congregation.

After church, one of my bestest friends and I went out to lunch and a movie. She is getting ready to have her 2nd son in two days (induction) and then she and her family are moving at the end of this month. I can't believe how fast time has flown!! I mean, she found out she was pregnant right about the time my divorce was finalized in the courts (a few months before I received the actual divorce papers) and now her baby is about to be born.... WOW! Where did all of that time go??

I know that time has passed because time continues whether we want it to or not... Plus, I can mark the passage of time by things I have accomplished in my belly dancing and my weight loss. I also have to remind myself something another friend of mine pointed out - each week that passes is one that has made you (me) stronger... each day, you (I am) are that much better.

It was nice to get that reminder today. There are times I wish that I could go back in time where things were simpler but then I also think that I wouldn't want to lose what I have gained. I know that I there are parts of me that haven't changed in the past year and a half but there are other parts of me that are forever changed. Like I've said before, there are times where I feel as if I can see in the distance the "me" I am working on becoming but I'm not there yet...

I'm not necessarily looking for a "quick fix" or instant gratification, I would just like to feel as if I knew the direction my life was headed. I don't like just waiting.... I feel as if I'm doing what I need to do for me now but I also would like to know where this path is going to lead me......