Personal Style

For some time now I have been giving serious consideration to my personal style.  I know that I've been called eccentric, "brave," crazy, etc. for some of my clothing/accessory/style choices and I am becoming more okay with those things.  The only one that I'm not necessarily okay with is being told that I'm "brave" for my style choices - brave is running into a burning building to rescue someone (thanks for that, Mom), I'm not "brave" for cutting my hair short/wild or wearing colorful clothing that makes me feel good.  I was flipping through a book about style today and came across the saying,   "We must dress for the everyday theatre that is our lives" and I want to embrace that statement.

I know that there are times/places where I need to tone things down a little bit (if I'm attending a meeting with the big bosses, I should probably attempt to dress a little more conservatively) but I think other than that, I should express myself.  I have learned about myself lately that I really love things that are asymmetrical.  When I was talking to my Mom today, she suggested that since I love things that are asymmetrical, I should try wearing one of my long/crazy earrings and a normal earring on the other ear.  I had never thought about trying that so I think I'm going to!  I was very excited to also find a pair of shoes where the two of them are asymmetrical - they have different designs on each shoe but the designs go together (if you ever saw "Magic School Bus," these shoes remind me of something that Miss Frizzle would wear).  I'm definitely excited to get them and wear them to work!

When also thinking about some of the things I'm drawn to when it comes to style (in addition to things that are asymmetrical), I'm drawn to clothing items/accessories that are "rockabilly" and things that are "bohemian."  While I do enjoy wearing lots of black, I also do enjoy bold colors with interesting patterns and items with interesting lines.  That combination may be overwhelming to some but it does speak to me.  I'm not sure if that is a contradiction to being an introvert but it's me.

I am hoping that some of this confidence I'm feeling with my sense of personal style can spill into work.  I have been feeling pushed around a little bit by a few people in particular at work and I'm not sure why I'm allowing them to do so.  I'm the director/manager of the building and I have staff who have been approaching me and saying, "I need you to do....." or "You have to do...."  For the most part, I feel as if the only ones who should be able to talk to me that way are people who are above my pay grade.  I know that I'm letting them do it rather than putting my foot down but I'm not sure why they're feeling entitled and that's something that I feel as if I need to get to the bottom of if I'm going to put an end to it.  Situations like this are always difficult to turn around especially without attitudes/emotions taking over.

Even though this last week at work was a four day work week for me (yay for having last Monday off!), I worked almost 50 hours in those four days and I don't think I got everything accomplished that I needed to in those four days.  I have a new management book on order that I'm looking forward to receiving this week.  I hoping that one of these days something will click and I will be able to feel more confident and comfortable in my job.  I'm not sure when it's going to happen, I'm just hopeful that it actually will happen.

I am proud of myself for what I said at the dance studio yesterday.  In the middle of class, someone decided to get out their bottle of essential oils during a break and started putting it on themselves and the other people at the studio.  I thankfully stopped her before she just put it on me (without even asking) and the other students tried to get me to smell their wrists/necks.  Whatever was in it, didn't effect me in a good way and I said something - why would you bring a bottle of essential oils into a small space with poor ventilation where people are active/sweating when you don't know who might be allergic to what.  I immediately had difficulty breathing and got a little dizzy.  The person told me that I should have been fine since it was "all natural" and I said that my reaction was a natural one for someone with allergies.  I thought it was ridiculous and hopefully by me saying something it will at least spark a conversation about the dance studio being a scent free space.

Well my dear readers, I'm going to bring this to a close for tonight, put together my "me" work outfit for tomorrow and think about heading to bed.  I've had some bouts of insomnia this past week so I'm hoping that I'll be able to get some sleep tonight.  I hope you have opportunities this upcoming week to embrace your own personal style and muchness and I thank you for joining me along my journey.  =)