Let it go... let it go...

I decided to take this weekend off - off from dance, off from singing in the choir - just off.  I didn't end up having to work for my Sports Coordinator yesterday (the softball team she coaches had been in the playoffs and they lost during the week so they didn't play in the championships yesterday - I felt bad they lost but was glad that I didn't have to work) and I opted not to go to the dance studio.  I made the decision to take a break.  I did the same thing with singing in the church choir this morning - I took a break.  I had been wanting to take a break the last couple of weeks but the director had reasons why they needed me there those weeks; I told him at Thursday's rehearsal that he wasn't going to guilt me into it again.  I didn't have anything spectacular that I needed to do; I just needed some me time.  My next challenge to myself is taking a day or two off of work for me time.

This past week was pretty interesting at work...  We had a staff meeting on Tuesday and surprise to me, the boss of my boss attended.  She and I talked for a bit and she had nothing but praise for the building.  On Wednesday I got a phone call from my boss saying that the head boss was displeased by the state of my office - I'm in the middle of several huge projects, building accreditation and preparing for an inspection so my work table and desk were covered with work.  In the phone call, I was told to drop everything I was working on and to not do anything until my office was clean.  I wasn't happy about it but I did what I was told.

I guess one of the things that frustrated me most about it is I had to put away everything that I was working on only to get it back out to work on it.  I was instructed to only get out what information I'm working on and then to put it back as soon as I'm done.  These instructions came because this is how she (the boss of my boss) prefers to work and to maintain her office.  I know you sometimes just have to play the work game but it still is frustrating to me.

What I need to learn is how to not let things frustrate me or if they do frustrate me, I need to learn how to let them go (without the solution just to be breaking into the "Let it Go" song).  ...  Something just happened that will allow me to attempt to practice this - I just checked my work email (what possessed me to do that?!?) and I have an email from an employee telling me she has a doctor's note excusing her for the next two weeks (and she had a doctor's note for this past week) - what am I going to do??  This week is the last week of school and next week is the first week of summer programming and I need all hands on deck.  Oh, well.  I guess I don't have an option really...  I don't have a choice but to make it all work.

Something that does make it difficult for me is to make things work when I don't feel as if I have the means to do so.  Being down this staff member when I'm already short-staffed (the person who had been working in my kitchen had his last day on Friday; his wife got orders so they're moving) is going to be complicated and I might have to put in extra hours myself - I might have to be in programming myself and then put in extra time to get my office work accomplished.  I do enjoy spending time in the program but I'm going to have to find a way to balance everything.  I am sympathetic to her situation but I have to keep the building running somehow.  Maybe I should wear my running shoes to work tomorrow just to be on the safe side...

On the plus side, I took the opportunity to call to my Grandma today (hi, Grandma!).  I haven't talked to her in quite some time and I decided to try calling her out of the blue today.  We had a very nice talk and then I called and talked to my Mom.  What's nice about talking to both of them is they offer me different ways to look at situations and support me regardless of my choices.  The three of us are very much alike and when we get together we finish one another's thoughts/sentences and it's difficult for anyone else to get a word in edge wise - always fun.

Well, my dear readers, I think I should probably bring this to a close since I have some things to figure out going into the next few weeks of work being down a staff member.  Or, what I might do instead is get as much rest/relaxation tonight as I can since the next couple of weeks (and going into summer) is going to get a little (or a lot) hectic.  Thanks for joining me on my quest again and I hope we have opportunities for muchness this week!  =)