Goals

Well, this past week I did a pretty good job sticking with my goal of not going into work early and actually taking the time to workout before going in.  I worked out 4/5 mornings (one morning my knee just wasn't going to let me do anything so I decided not to push it).  For my workouts, I opted to do a workout DVD for two mornings and walked for two mornings.  My goal is to workout each morning before work this upcoming week as well.  I'm kind of hoping the weather holds and I can walk outside again because I surprisingly enjoyed it.  My legs weren't too happy after my 1.25 mile walk before going into work but I felt pretty good while I walked.  I surprised myself too by meeting the 10,000 step goal each work day!

Another goal that I tried really hard to stick to was my work goal.  I tried really hard this past week to turn responsibilities back to the employees and to do my job only.  I felt as if I had a pretty good handle on doing just that until Thursday hit...  Because I felt as if I let myself down, Friday was difficult for me.  Someone actually mentioned to me that it looked as if I just wasn't "feeling it" on Friday and I had to agree with them.  While I was glad that someone noticed how I was feeling, it also made me realize that maybe I also need to work on that work "poker face" so how I'm feeling isn't as noticeable to those around me.  I don't want to necessarily come across as cold and unfeeling but maybe I need to work on hiding it better when I'm not having the best of days.

One of the things I decided to do was get a book on management.  Yes, I've always been a nerd so I am going to a book to hopefully learn more about being in management.  It's a book that I've heard about and have decided it's time for me to read (the fact that it got pretty good reviews helps me out). The book is supposed to arrive this week and I'm hoping that it will be a quick read.  I feel as if I've been doing an okay job but I definitely haven't been doing the job up to my own personal standards.  I know that I've written before about having impossibly high standards for myself but I feel as if I'm currently letting myself down with some of the aspects of my work.

I heard something when flipping through TV channels that struck me - "you have to figure out who you are and then be that every day."  I have been working on finding my identity and I think it's time to take that up a notch.  I keep saying that I'm going to work on muchness and who I am...  I'm noticing that it's just become talk and I don't like that.  I know that I'm the only one that can really do something about that but I think the time to just talk about it is over.

Maybe one of my dogs knocked some sense into me today or something...  They were super excited this AM when I let them out of their crate and they jumped up and the top of their head hit me in the upper lip.  At the end of the day, it's still swollen and purple and I'm sure it will still look like that tomorrow (hopefully the swelling will go down over night so I don't have to explain it at work tomorrow since the purple I can cover up with lipstick).  Luckily I have little dogs; if I had a big dog and this happened, I probably would have ended up with a tooth knocked out and a concussion or something.  Gotta love my little fur babies..

I think it's a good thing that I'm finally feeling better after my respiratory infection that I had so I can focus on figuring 'me' out again.  It was really difficult to do anything extra when I was feeling so sick.  By the end of the work day my brain felt like mush and I couldn't think of anything but taking my antibiotics and sleeping.  Now that I'm beyond that, I can think about working on myself some more and finding my muchness.  I will let you know how that goes...

Well, my dear readers, I should probably bring this to a close so I can think about heading to bed.  I have a busy work week ahead and we have a big dance show next weekend that we have to finish preparing for.  I also need to think about getting to bed so I can wake up in the morning so I can workout before heading into work.  Next week, I hope that I'll have some news for you in regards to how things are going at work and progress in regards to working on myself.  Have a fantastic week, dear readers!  =)