Maybes

I reread my post from last week and I noticed that I used the word maybe quite a bit.  I don't like how noncommital I was with what I was writing about.  The things that I wrote about last week I really want to do for myself so I don't know why the word maybe came up so much.  I know in the past I haven't wanted to commit to things in the fear I was going to let other people down if I didn't reach the goals that I had set for myself.  The things I wrote about last week were for me to grant permission to let myself be me.  Why wouldn't I want to commit to that?  From here on out, I am going to commit to that!

I have said in the past that I want to be better for other people.  I've thought that I've needed to change who I am, how I look, things I say, etc. in order to be the person that others thing I should be.  I am ready to be better for me.  I know that there are always going to be those who have an opinion of who they think I should be.  I am realizing that I get to decide if their opinion matters or not.  That's been an epiphany of sorts for me.  Up until now I've been under the impression that just because someone had an opinion of me, they had to be right.  I now know that's not the case.

I get to be me because I am the bestest me that there is ever going to be (yes, that's an invented word - bestest).  I don't know what made me realize it this week, but I came to the conclusion that some of the things I tell the kids that I work with I could also tell myself.  I'm okay with equating myself to kids since kids have a very unique/interesting perspective of pretty much everything.  But back to what I was writing...  I tell my kids on a regular basis that each of them are the best them there is ever going to be so why can't I say something like that to myself?  I also very easily build up the adults around me but I have a very difficult time doing it for myself.  This is something that I'm going to work on.

Well, my dear readers, I know I haven't written that much tonight but I have some pretty big things happening this week that I need to work on getting together.  Know that I appreciate each and every one of you and I thank you for joining me along my quest.  Keep letting those freak flags fly and be the bestest you can be this week!  I know I'm going to!  No more maybes!  =)