Words, words, words

I decided something about myself this week -- I really, REALLY don't like the phrase "make sure everyone's on the same page."  The same page as what?  The mystical guide book that holds all of life's secrets and keeps you from getting lost?  The book that, even if it doesn't give you all the answers, at least helps to keep you from screwing things up too badly along your way?  I didn't receive my copy of that book if they were handed out to everyone - I must have been absent that day...  Where would one get a copy of that book/manual in order for me to be able to get on the proverbial page that everyone else is on?  I know that I've written before that I don't want to have the opportunity to see into the future or to have all of the answers but there would be time it would be nice to not feel so confused/lost...

I know that phrase has become a common one both in and out of the workplace and I'm not entirely sure why it bothers me as much as it does.  Maybe one of the reasons that it bothers me so much is the phrase is all to often used when there is no page involved.  It's a phrase worked into conversation (especially during or in reference to meetings I've found) when there is nothing put in writing thus making it very difficult to be on any page at all.

Why are some people so afraid to put things down on paper?  Are they scared/worried that those written words might get out at some point?  I'm asking because I'm not one who understands that - I write a public blog!  Even before I started writing my blog, I was one who loved (and still do) to write notes/letters to people and I've never been shy about putting my thoughts/feelings out there for people to read about.  I still have old journals that I wrote in so I could revisit those thoughts (some of it has made for some very interesting reading depending on what point in my life I was writing them).  Maybe one of the reasons this bothers me so much is it subconsciously makes me think about the wasband.  He was never one to write notes/love letters unless persuaded to do so and that bothered me.  Granted, I probably would have hidden them away or destroyed them all at this point but that's beside the point...

I guess at this point, I just have to keep reminding myself that all of this boils down to perception.  I see it as, when things aren't written down, there is room to take what people say and interpret what they say the way that you want to.  When things are put onto paper, it limits the amount of wiggle room that can happen.  I know that it might be scary for some to put thoughts/expectations/words onto paper but I think that it would be helpful for it to happen in lots of different situations...

Okay...  Time to be done with that train of thought.  On the plus side, I can now say that I'm an official belly dance instructor and I have my own class.  A number of weeks ago, my dance instructor asked me if I would like to take over her Saturday classes as my own and I taught my first class yesterday.  There were a total of seven students (three newbies, two who have been taking lessons from my instructor and two troupe members who came to support me).  The three new gals said that they'll be back next week but we'll see if they come back (hopefully I didn't scare them off!).  I think it was a fun class and hopefully I'll be able to keep that up in the weeks to come.

Well, on that note, I'm going to bring this to a close for the evening and get some work done before heading to bed.  Fingers crossed that I'll be able to get back on track on working on my muchness in the upcoming week...  I wish that for you as well, dear readers.  Embrace your muchness!  =)