Transformation

I had a thought provoking question posed to me today...  Why do I feel the need to impress family members by transforming myself more before I visit?  The question was posed because I have the opportunity to visit family in the upcoming months and I am pushing myself again when it comes to my physical transformation.  Yes, I took a bit of a diet hiatus after visiting the last time and while I didn't gain too many pounds back, I gained a couple back and now I want to lose those pounds and then some before visiting again.  In an effort to lose those pounds/inches, I have purchased a few more dance workout DVDs to see if I can jump start my metabolism and lose what I want to.  One of the DVDs contains three different 20 minute workouts while the other two are an hour each.  I'm hoping that I'll be able to work them into my weekly schedule.

Some people would ask why it sounds like I'm trying to kill myself in an effort to trim down before my trip.  One of the reasons why I'm trying to fit more workouts into my weekly schedule is, I've cut down my belly dancing hours in half each week.  I had been attending class for two hours on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Saturday.  My instructor has decided to take a bit of a break and is no longer offering Saturday classes (currently but it may be permanent), one of the Wednesday classes I had been attending is now a class strictly for beginners so I'm down to one hour on Wednesdays and two on Mondays.  The workout DVDs that I purchased are cardio dance workouts with Latin dance influence so they'll be using a lot of the same muscle groups used in belly dance I hope.

The only downside to pushing myself is I'm hoping that I don't bulk up muscle wise as I've done in the past with workouts.  There was a point a number of years ago where I took up Tae-Bo 3-4 days a week in the living room and while I lost some weight, I also ended up building more muscle than I was hoping to so I didn't trim down as much as I wanted to.  This time around workout wise, I am hoping to lose weight as well as trim down.  I guess time will only tell if I'm going to be able to get the results I'm looking for or not.

So, back to why I'm obsessing over this...  I've been thinking about the answer to that for the last few hours and I don't know that I've come up with a really good answer to it...  I don't know if it's because I feel as if I have something to prove or what.  All I do know is this is something that I feel strongly about and I feel as if it's something that I need to do.


I had an experience last night that I'm not sure if I want to relive or not.  I was reading before bed when all of a sudden it felt as if my bed had turned into one of those beds that you put change into and it begins to vibrate.  It took me a second to realize what was going on but all I could figure it was an earthquake.  I reached for my iPad and looked up the local news website and sure enough there had been an earthquake!  The thing that I thought was strange was the dogs didn't react to it at all at the time.  However, today my dogs have been little Velcro dogs (even to the point of whining the entire time I was taking my shower after my morning workout!).  It's been quite some time since my dogs have been Velcro dogs so I found it to be slightly annoying but I guess I can't blame them too much - I mean, the ground was moving after all...

I finished a book this week that Mom recommended the last time I visited.  It equated two women's life journey to the metamorphosis of a butterfly.  Once I started reading the book, I didn't want to put it down.  I could relate so much to the main characters of the book and when I was finished with the book, I told Mom that I feel as if I'm ready to take a little bit more control of my own destiny.  I'm not entirely sure what all that is going to entail but maybe that may have a little bit to do with my body metamorphosis obsession as of late.  I'm ready to stop being a caterpillar and ready to begin my transformation into a butterfly.  I will keep you posted...