I feel like a bounce ball....

I feel like the last couple of weeks that I have been bounced around so much that I feel like one of those bounce balls that you drop on the floor and then they go every which way and you have to crawl under a table to find it. For as many times as I've been under that table (metaphorically speaking), I feel like I'm now covered in some fuzzies, dirt, and the piece of a Cheeto that fell on the floor that no one bothered to pick up... Yes, I know that is kind of a weird comparison but it's how I feel.

Things have been interesting at work so I've been needed in lots of different places and I don't necessarily know where I'm headed from day to day (or from hour to hour depending). Granted, I know that some of that is now built into my job description but it does get hard to brush the fuzzies/dirt/Cheetos off after awhile. Maybe I just need a break from my day-to-day insanities (not just at work but in my outside of work activities as well).

Don't get me wrong; I love dancing and I do enjoy my job, however, maybe I do just need a change of pace and a change of environment. It's probably a good thing that work is closed for our annual vacation next week as well as the studio being closed. I know that with the studio being closed, I will have to put in some work at home (which I need to do since I have several upcoming solo performances) but I'm okay with that. I think maybe I just need to change things up a little and give myself a different perspective.

Maybe along with that different perspective I'll be able to continue along my journey. Actually in one way that I made major strides along my journey this week... Someone at work asked me something about my ex (using his name) and my actual response was "who?" It was kind of a mixed feeling after I thought about it. I know that on one hand it is a sign of my personal growth and distance from my situation however, I also felt slightly horrible about it too since I was with him for all that time. But I guess that I need to focus on the good of the situation - the fact that I am continuing to move on.

Some of the feelings of being a bounce ball could have to do with the time of year and the upcoming holidays. These are some of the times that I feel lonely. Yes, it's nice to have the unique extended family that I do but there is something different about having a significant other at this time of year. Oh, well. Maybe next year...

I am thankful for my unique extended family and the fact that they are here to support me wen my family isn't readily available. I know that my family is just a phone call away (and I call them often) however, it is nice to go out with members of my unique family if I just need an evening away from things going on in my life.

Well, this bounce ball has some things that need to be accomplished before bouncing off to bed in preparation for the unexpected paths ahead of me in the upcoming week. =)