Sleep....

Over the last two weeks or so, I have only been getting a handful of hours of sleep a night. I feel as if I've just been tossing and turning and not getting as much "restful" sleep, as I should be getting. Well, Friday night and last night, I feel as if as soon as my head has hit the pillow I have been out until my alarm has gone off. I guess I finally caught up to the sleep that has been eluding me. Thank goodness....

I'm not sure why sleep has been eluding me, I have been tired from all of the dance performances/rehearsals and from work, I haven't really been having bad dreams (that I can remember anyway), I just haven't been achieving restful sleep. But, after sleeping well for the last couple of nights, I am finally feeling better - physically and emotionally. I am hoping I haven't just jinxed myself and that I'll be able to sleep tonight as well as I have the past couple of nights... =)

Something I have thought about in my semi sleep-deprived state is that I am still allowing people to take advantage of my "people pleaser" mentality. I have one again found myself putting the wants/needs/opinions of others above my own. One such opinion came in a belly dance sword I had been looking into getting. I showed a photo of it to one of my fellow dancers and her opinion made me go with a different balancing sword over the one I was excited about getting. After thinking about my decision, going back and forth about it, and talking to someone who's opinion I value greatly (thanks, Mom!), I ordered the scimitar I wanted today! As soon as I get this new one, yes, I will be the owner of two belly dance balancing swords but they are very different from one another and I will be able to use them for very different pieces of music. I can hardly wait to get my new one in the mail and get into the studio to work with it! Maybe when I get my new dance scimitar it will help me to harness my inner "warrior" in other aspects of my life as well. =)

I am looking forward to having the day off tomorrow with nothing that I have to do. I'm not entirely sure how I'm going to spend my day off, but I am definitely looking forward to it. Sure, I could always straighten up my apartment or something along those lines but it's kind of nice to not have a "structure" for tomorrow. If there is something I choose to do, I can. If I decide to take a nap at one in the afternoon, I can. Yes, we have dance class tomorrow ("why should we close the studio just because it's a holiday?" my instructor would say), but the rest of the day is my own; hopefully I will be able to convince the dogs of that. =) I wish I could take the day to work on and off with my sword but that will have to wait until I get it.... Even though I was reading an article online today about sword dancing that you really shouldn't work with it for too long at any given period of time or you run into the risk of injuring yourself. As I told one of my brothers today, I don't want to get to that point where I might injure myself because I happen to like my body parts where they are currently located. =)

Well, since I have been writing about sleep, maybe I should bring this to a close for this evening in the hopes that sleep will come to me once again tonight. Before I close, I will send out a great big "Thank you" to the men and women, who are currently serving, have served or work for/with our Armed Forces! =)