Feeling better

As the week has passed, I have continued to feel better. The flu like symptoms are gone and all that I have left is a cough that doesn't seem to want to go away. Personally I will take coughing to being nauseous any day....

I feel like once again that the weekend has gone by way too quickly. Part of that may come from working seven hours yesterday (another teacher and I painted the classroom; I went up and down the ladder at least a million times it felt like). While it was a long hard day of work that eliminated half of my weekend, the seven hours of overtime on my check will be nice (especially with the list of things my car needs).

Everyone told me that from going up and down the ladder so many times yesterday I would most likely be in a lot of pain today. Luckily it wasn't too bad. I came home from work yesterday, took a steaming hot shower and then sat on the couch for awhile to relax. When I needed to get up to let the dogs out, my legs were stiff/sore but it didn't last that long. I think my quick recovery can be attributed to building strong muscles through dancing. =) Yay, dancing! =)

Well, I survived another post-divorce milestone this past week. I made it to and through the two year mark of when my wasband up and left (leaving me a letter in his wake). Someone who has known me pre-divorce reminded me this week just how far I've come in the last two years. Right after he left me, I wasn't sure how my life would go on from that point. Now, not only have I survived him leaving me, I really feel as if I'm thriving.

I mean, I am living on my own and all that entails (no one else to let the dogs out, do the laundry, investigate the "noises," clean the bathroom, do the dishes, fix the random "issues" in the apartment, etc.), I am learning/performing belly dance, on occasion I take myself out, I have gone on driving adventures, and I am (in general) learning how to do things for me. Yes, I have a wonderful support system of family and friends and they have been invaluable the last two years (my family has been there for me my whole life but especially the last two years).

Okay, since writing all of that, I have been sitting here for the last hour just staring at my computer screen and my thoughts/feelings have done a complete 180. I thought that I had a lot to say about how far I've come in the last two years but then started to think that there might be some of you out there in cyber-land who are getting sick of me and what I have to say.

One of the things I have been thinking about is, even though I’m a strong person, I am so tired of being strong all of the time… I just wish there was someone that could let me be strong in situations but in turn be there to pick me up and support me if/when I fall. But along with that, I want someone who would help in times where I couldn’t be strong anymore. Is that really too much to ask? Personally, I don’t think so… But with my current track record, I’m most likely wrong…

Maybe my complete 180 has come from the combination of being sick last week, working all day yesterday, the emotional dealings of this week, and the holidays approaching. I think I need to just turn off my computer for tonight and relax before the upcoming week. Even though it's a short week due to Thanksgiving, I have a feeling it's going to be a busy one.

Have a great Thanksgiving everyone and I will hopefully be in better spirits next week.