I have found myself at a place in my life that I never expected and I guess I'll just have to see where I end up. I never imagined that I would be starting over at 28... For the last 5 years, I have been following my husband around the country - supporting his hopes and dreams and career. Nine and a half months ago, he decided to move out and start divorce proceedings. Granted, I'll admit we had problems (probably more than I was ready to admit at the time) but I honestly never thought we would end in divorce. I know that people get divorced everyday and it has become a very commonplace thing to have happen in this day and age - I just never expected to be a part of that statistic. But ready or not, I have found myself a member of the "divorcee community."
Because of this unexpected turn of events, I am facing a move to a part of the country where I don't know anyone. I have a job lined up but I am waiting to hear when they want me to start. Granted I am going to do the same job there that I am doing here but I feel like I need a fresh start and find out who "me" is... The only reason I moved to the part of the country I am in currently, is I followed my ex-husband (here on out referred to as my "was-band" as in he "was my husband") and his job. I don't want to continue to live in a place where the only reason I got to see it was because of him. I feel like I need to move for me (even if it's nuts).
A friend of mine said that professional growth opportunities will come up at different points in my life. She went on to say that personal growth opportunities don't surface that often and if/when one does, I should seize it. That's what I'm going to do.I feel like I have my fingernails into finding myself but when I move and take my new job, I might be able to grasp the new me with my fingertips and go from there...
Yes, I am scared to death... Scared of what if I move and end up not liking my job? What if I move and can't afford my rent? What if I move and can't find my way around my new community? What if... What if... What if... What if's have made me question decisions in the past as well as not try.... Not this time! Granted, I may fail but I'm not going to let my fear of the unknown stop me from taking this opportunity.
Well, enough for now. Need to think about heading to bed but will write more again about my "adventures."
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