I'm Possible

Even though I keep saying that I'm going to find a way to cut back on my work hours, I worked approximately a 66 hour work week last week.  Since I worked such a long week, I decided to take myself to the movies after work on Friday night (even though I was tired and just wanted to put my feet up).  I took myself to the new Sally Field movie and I truly enjoyed it!  In one of the scenes that I found to be extremely profound, Sally Field character and her friend went to see a motivational speaker.  In true form, the motivational speaker had a few "catch phrases" but one of them really stuck with me.  He said, rather than looking at things/tasks as impossible, think about how to turn them into I'm possible instead.

Now I'm not usually and overly positive person and don't tend to look at the glass as being half full (I tend to just see a glass of water).  That doesn't mean that I don't see the possibilities in front of me; my problem is I often see too many possibilities in front of me and have difficulty picking which possibility to go with.  Knowing that I'm an overthinker/perfectionist can and does make things difficult at times but I guess there could be worse things than seeing too many possibilities - for me, it would be worse not to see any possibilities at all...

One of the possibilities I wouldn't have imagined for myself before it happened is, six years ago today I performed my very first belly dance solo.  A photo from that night popped up on my Facebook newsfeed today and I was stunned.  I am definitely not the same dancer that I was that night.  What started out as a hobby and something to get me out of my apartment after my divorce has given me an opportunity to express a side of my personality that I didn't even know needed expressing.  I am definitely glad that I have been able to enjoy the performance opportunities that I've had thus far and look forward to having more in the future.

I have been reminded multiple times this week of something my Mom told me not that long ago (I'm hoping one of these days it'll stick...); "you are not qualified to run the universe so stop trying!"  While I don't necessarily feel as if I'm trying to run the universe, I know that I definitely have too much on my plate that I am trying to accomplish.  Maybe I need to get one of those compartment plates that they make for kids or a cafeteria tray so I can sort through some of the things on my plate vs. just continually allowing more things to be piled on.   I need to get out of the lunch line or away from the buffet so more things don't continue to overwhelm my plate.

Something that will be helpful going into this upcoming week is the fact that the kids at work will be returning to school so they won't be in the building from 7 am - 6 pm as they have been for the past two weeks.  I also get to sleep in the mornings vs. when I've had to get up in order to get to work and open the building before the kids arrived.  Since the building will be quiet in the mornings (and one of my staff members will be back from maternity leave starting tomorrow), I'm hoping that I'll be able to get quite a bit of work accomplished; especially since the week after next, I'll be out of the building at a training.

I know I've said it before but I am hoping that the time away from the building will help my staff not depend on me so much and I can actually take a vacation or even just random time off of work.  I know that I have done this in the past but the time away seems to be fewer and far between.  In order to achieve time off for me, I know that I have to empower the staff to accomplish what needs to be done while I'm gone and trust that it actually will get accomplished.  I guess only giving that opportunity to them will show me (and them) if this is a possibility.

On that note, I am going to bring this to a close for tonight so I can get myself in the frame of mind of going into work tomorrow after my 66 hour work week last week (including working 6 hours on Saturday for an event).  I wish you many possibilities in the week ahead and I thank you for joining me again.  =)