Enough is enough

I can't believe that tomorrow is the start of another work week already...  It probably doesn't help that on Friday, I worked from 6:20 am - 9:30 pm and then was in the building yesterday from 9:30 am - 4:00 pm.  Why was I in the building yesterday you may ask?  Tomorrow is the culmination of all of my hard work over the last several months and the inspector/assessor for our accreditation arrives at 9:00 am to begin the process.  I'm pretty sure that all of the paperwork is in order but I'm not 100% confident about that - I think part of that comes from not being through this process before (I've been through the similar process when I worked in the other building but not this particular inspection or as a manager).  Along with her looking through the paperwork (in addition to looking through the 92 pieces of documentation I had to upload to their website), she has to interview some of the staff (including me), and then observe how the staff interact with the kids after school.  Tomorrow is only the 4th day of school so we'll see how that goes...

I am just so ready to be done with this whole process and be able to move on from it at work.  This accreditation has been what's consuming me for the last six months+ and I'm ready for it to all be over.  I know that there is always something else that will take the place of this project but I'm hoping it doesn't become as monopolizing.  The only downside to not knowing what's coming next is it makes it difficult to attempt to take some time off (and I desperately need to take some time off of work - and going to my conference in two weeks doesn't count since I'll be in classes all day).  We'll see what happens and if my boss agrees or not.

I am looking forward to attending the conference I'm headed to two weeks from today even though I have at least 1001 things to do around my apartment and at work before I leave.  It all always seems to come together in the end so I'm trying not to worry about it...  I just checked my work email and we got an email in regards to the conference - they want the week to be "business casual" dress and I'm not exactly sure what that means.  I tried looking it up online (yes, I'm a nerd like that) but what I was finding didn't necessarily help since there were many different interpretations of what "business casual" looks like.  I don't want to be the one in attendance who's either way over/under dressed...  (Mom & Dad, any thoughts/insight would be greatly appreciated!)

One of the things that I'm not looking forward to this week is saying goodbye to one of the women I consider to be one of my "dance mamas."  She gave me the opportunity to dance my first belly dance solo outside of the troupe's studio and I have danced at her show often since then (she is also the one I have been her substitute instructor when she's been out of town).  I'm not one who handles goodbyes well and this goodbye is going to be a difficult one for me since she's moving to the other side of the country.  She's having a goodbye get together this upcoming Saturday and while I don't always do well in group situations such as this, I'm going to at least swing by to say goodbye and give last hugs.

I came across something that I really needed to read tonight:

I AM ENOUGH

-Molly Mahar

I am full of sparkle and compassion.  I genuinely want to make the world a better place.  I love hard.  I practice kindness.  I'm not afraid of the truth.  I am loyal, adventurous, supportive, and surprising.  I am a woman.  I am enough.  I make mistakes but I own them and learn from them.  Sometimes I make a lot of mistakes.

There are definitely times where I need to remind myself that I am enough (even when I'm stressing over the accreditation process tomorrow).  On that note, I am going to bring this to a close for tonight in the hopes that I'll be able to get some decent sleep tonight (I turn into a bit of an insomniac when I'm stressed).  My plan is to make sure to embrace my muchness for the process of accreditation tomorrow and I hope that will help with my confidence.  I hope you embrace your muchness this week, my dear readers!  =)